I am back and this is the first journal entry of the new year, w0000. Ya whatever anyway. I've been trying to get back into drawing as I said and currently I am contemplating whether to work on my poetry a little and put up probably my best work thus far. There are several mistakes on it which I am now aware of but I just like showing off and being looked up at. Makes me feel all warm and special inside. Anyway currently here is an update of what's going on.

I am waiting for a reply from two places which I've applied to work at. I am hoping to start working so that I may start earning some actual money. I am also working pretty hard in school and doing alot better than usual which I enjoy. I am struggling in math though and I believe I had a bad start and I am trying to pull myself out. My mood swings have thrown off some off alot of my days especially in that class so thats why I have like a C+ in there. I am trying to physcially shape up for I want to be able to play with my kids when i get them several years in the future. I hope to be a father of at least 3 kids and definatly no more than 5. I know how tough it is to raise 5 kids, how? Because I am one of 6 originally it was 5 so ya you get the point. I hope to shape up my life so I can actually enjoy it a bit and so far it seems fine but my deteriorating mental condition is bothering me, and the stress I am suffering from only makes things worse. The only way I can keep myself relatively stable is being absolutely depressed unfortunatly. Currently I am trying to decide how to slove this problem for well If I became mentally unstable I would in turn become extremely dangerous and that would be bad. Anyway thats all for now. Farewell.